I find people and nature captivating, creativity and motion ravishing. I make the choices in my heart.
I know co-incidents don't exist, and in human as well as in life all phenomena are interdependent.
The polarities exist only due to each other, in relation to each other,
are the opposite ends of the same scale.
Everything happening in life is good for something
and even in the hardest moments things could be much worse.
Freedom and happiness are states of mind.
I know that time is not to be found but taken and time like any other phenomena in life is relative.
I have experiences with grief, illness, treason,
low self-confidence, distrust...
I know that in order to change my life I have to be ready
to change myself - and it is possible!
First time I heard about gestalt psychotherapy was many years ago, but I felt no connection then.
I encountered Gestalt therapy again in 2014 and then it was exactly what I had been looking for for several years.
It still is - as my work and as my way of life.
Already in the first therapy group it became obvious for me that in order gestalt truly to work it has to be integrated in daily life.
And this is a life long process...
What has changed in my life since 2014?
I have much more energy, motivation, inspiration, courage, and clearer, deeper, more satisfying relationships. I feel desire for life, excitement, love, sadness, anger, pain. And I know that is the only way I want to live - being conscious, caring, responsible - living fully! Since 2015 I study at Scandinavian Gestalt Institute (http://gis-international.dk/) and since 2017 I carry out individual and group therapy sessions.
I am a member of Estonian Association of Gestalt Psychotherapists.
I planned to study art but somehow could not finalize my paintings. They never looked as initially planned,
and this was disappointing.
So I ended up studying applied mathematics instead, and for twenty years I worked in international business.
However, the idea of someday painting again, remained...
In 2010, I visited Australia, and spent half a day in the galleries of Alice Springs admiring the aboriginal art.
It was there I felt inspiration and understood that
this is the way I want to paint.
In 2015 I left the business and for more than two years
painting was my basic occupation alongside studying.
My paintings are contemplation on living,
born out of experienced pain and joy of learning.
I paint the themes important for me, what I want to memorize,
the directions I want to take in my life.
Painting is my self-expression, meditation, visualization of my mental and spiritual journey.
I use the "dot technique" inspired by the art of native Australians.
Since 2018 I arrange dotting classes for small groups.
Pattern of painting fragments: Kadi Kerner